Bla, Bla, Bla

:) Bla, bla, bla. I wanna get a pedicure. Never had an interest before, now all of a sudden sounds like heaven.

Also, I think I'm opening up inside. Like, getting freer. Like just being able to sit back at look at life and exhale. Experience it instead of waste it with busyness and fear and control (or rather a false sense of control).

The boy and I had a talk, and we're talking better. Getting at each other’s hearts. He's letting me in too. Into his pain and anger. Haven't felt this close and together and in love in a long time. Weird how sharing in someone else's suffering brings you both joy. God, the longer I live, the less I understand you and the more right that seems to me.

My friend is doing an experiment with blue light (cobalt) and healing. Super stoked about that because what could be more healing than cobalt. Lovely color. I'll post her results.

And beauty in general...it's healing. I think. Not in some mystical way. Or maybe so, the magic of God. Art and creation and life--the opposite of sin and death and sickness.

Ma and Pa are thinking of getting some land--we visited it a week ago and spent an hour tramping around a 12 acre wood. Wow. Pure heaven. The girl loved it. Absolutely loved it. :) Us too. At one point she lay down on the ground and looked up into the trees. I wish I had words for what that was like. Words would just lessen it.

So, my cobalt blue friend and I went thrifting--totally cool. Got some enameled cups for camping in the woods! Wishful buying. :) But, I broke one already. I didn't think you could break those--like they should be all indestructible and shit. Not so. Not so. Cut my finger on it too.

Whelp. Laters!