Presence

Ok, so, back to it. Onward and upward. Just because something is hard doesn't mean it's not worthwhile. So, Buying Hiatus, Temperance Mission whatever you want to call it, I need to be responsible and accountable. I don't live a champagne life. Period. Simple. I live a Good Will life.

But I do have an amazing life should I choose to appreciate it. I have wonderful in-laws. A husband who truly loves me and wants what's best for me. A beautiful and bright little girl. I have plenty and beyond. I'm just too stuck up too see it. Or I forget or something. And yes, everyone needs, "something to make the waiting sweeter." But I don't have to be spoiled.

Also, I will do better with pictures...as in, get some. Notice my anorexic arms and fluffy baby. Not so much the case anymore. And don't worry, I'm not anorexic. I was just breastfeeding 20 times a day. No joke. She was a piranha. :) Good thing too because I was always worried she wasn't getting enough. Also no joke.

I want to be present for my kid's life. And read and do things. Have adventures. Live my life. Live my life. I want to connect with my husband. And not just after the kiddo's in bed. Always. While doing chores, while running errands, when sitting in silence. Always.

I think I'm sort of a germ-a-phobe. Which probably means I'm a flaming germ-a-phobe. So I'm gonna try to nip that in the bud (or full blossom). Like, for instance, I don't want to go bowling because I don't want to put my feet into nasty shoes. But I love to bowl. Baby step answer....take old socks and throw them away! Genius. :)

Last but not least, pray for day shift. I'm such a zombie....